If I can sell these for a million dollar... :D

Are my paintings worth a million dollar?

I Want it So Bad... It hurts

I have been under the weather lately. It is simply due to the fact that I have yet manifested what I have been visualizing on: Being a Millionaire. I started to doubt again this thing about Law of Attraction. I clearly remember that "the secret" taught us that either it is one dolar or a million dollar you are focusing on, does not make any difference. However, there will be a buffer of time between right now and when the thing materialized the moment you start sending out your 'wish' to the universe.

At times, I feel very hyped up and greatly positive and optimistic as it was guaranteed 100% that the law of attraction is a law of nature and that it is as reliable as any other law in nature such as law of gravity. Apple always falls towards the centre of the earth regardless of the kind of apple, or the location where it falls. And thus, I just need to have a blind faith towards this law of attraction.

As promising and convenient it may sound, still, I had some 'faith' breakdowns or what most of us would call doubts on the legitimacy of this 'secret'.
is it only a mere wishful thinking which the idea was made believe to people who is hunger for a quick fix?

One of the 'breakdown' happened to me two days ago. As I checked my bank account and realized that I have spent way too much money this last month. Instead of a million dollar, I saw a decreasing amount of money in my account. I was down, and I was in pain. In the midst of my disappointment, my mom rang me and noticed that I was a little bit under the weather. Out of a sudden that very ordinary conversation turned out to be a teary conversation and so on. Sigh.
As she was concern about me and that she told me I should not be too overwhelmed with this whole one million dollar thing.

However, after the conversation was hung, and I was all alone again then I realize how badly I want this ONE million dollar. How serious I want to be a millionaire. O my universe, have I not wanted it badly? or is it not bad enough?
anyway this thing had really kept me sad, and I kept praying in my heart and try to surrender to the All giver to please give me a way to lead me to this one million dollar.

Thus, all day was spent on painting to sort of build my mood, and this is what I have:

What Is This Blog About?

Okay, a blog is to have a theme. Nothing new. Then what does this one talk about?

Personally, after cruising one blog after the other, I believe blog is a form of art. A gateway to express your self which ironically you want the rest of the world to read, to subscribe to, to get hooked to and so on. Is this another form of exhibitionism or a pure escape of an ordinary reality that bloggers have from day to day. I have no idea.

I have never kept a diary. However, the idea of online journal which accessible to millions others tickle me to then start blogging. Yet, I do not have a specific or particular topic to blog about. Eventually, I have decided to blog about what I want most to be. A millionaire, a multimillionaire.

Have you been reading my previous entries, you must have noticed that, or even from the very title of this blog. I want to be a millionaire.

The inspiration came from "the Secret". I bet you have at least heard of this hit and headline-making book-accompanied-with-a-DVD written and produced by Rhonda Byrne not so long ago. In one of the narration, there was a man talking about his affirmation made him a one million dollar cheque signed to him. Series of events that had let him to earned his very "first" million dollar cheque.

Law of Attraction. Thoughts become Things. Whatever you think of, it attracts.

The book summarizes the three fundamental law that make and shape our life and everything that surrounds it. It talks about how we are utterly responsible to the kind of life that we are having at the moment. Regardless of our preference to it. Meaning, either you like it or hate it, we created our LIFE. Your Life and Mine. The concept is hard both to accept and to understand. Does it as well mean that we attract all the bad things that happening around us. The answer is YES.

Therefore, this blog is dedicated to my passion in life. To the ultimate goal and purpose from the very first day I breath the air of life. I want to blog and put my heart and emotion regularly to being a MILLIONAIRE. I am manifesting and attracting this condition closer to me everyday. That what this is all about.

I remember that when I was 10 or something year old when I had a huge passion for animation. I love Disney's movie and I was so hungrily grasping information any thing that related to the making of an animated movies. I did lots of reading enthusiastically on how one animated movie was made, who were the lead animators, what is a clean up artist, who was the director and music composer and etc. I also spent hours after hours drawing characters of my aspiring animated movie. I had ideas on what kind of animated movies I wanted to make some day and what kind of music will be played on each scene. I had so much passion that every morning I wake my life was like in an animated movie. The singing bird, the singing town and everything was singing and swinging like those animated movie by Disney's in the 90s. Everytime there was an adult asking what I wanted to become when I grow up, I would firmly say, animator.

This passion had brought to an online acquaintance who was residing in Portland namely Tom Frank. He was an administrator in about.com under animation section to whom I have lost contact for about 10 years. We had lots of informative exchange of emails and it was wonderfully informative especially for me to have such an expert who was a professional and telling me about how to become an animator. One day, during my sixth-grade year, I had a package sent to me from him and it contained a book titled "The Animators Workbook". This book was so precious to me that I took care of it like I would take care my own bible. This meant the world to me.

I read every page and every word. I enjoyed the movement that the corner of the book made when flipped quickly. I loved every form of art that the book had to offer. This was the first time I practiced the law of attraction and ever since that I have been practicing law of attraction subconsciously. Learning English, Studying Abroad, Going to Europe.

I believe now in the power of mind. However, growing up I have started becoming a skeptics. More practical and less imaginative. I had started to join societies of bickering and complaining about hot weather, too much assignments, worries of future and so on.

Until one day, Rhonda Byrne with her Secret came to me in a gigantic way, gave me a slept in the face and reminded me of that wonderfully magical way that LIFE should be.

This blog is to remind me of how precious life can be and how it should be. To get me ONE again with the energy of positivity and flow of opportunities abundantly.

The Secret is: Think ONLY what you want to BE and HAVE. Dont ask why or start Analise, THINK and MANIFEST.

I was in Zurich earlier today, and there was this advertisement that strucked me like no other. It says:

SMART CRITIQUES, STUPID CREATES


Yes it is quite true. We must once again waken our child instinct, instinct to only succeed and achieve. Instinct without buffer of logic and analysis on questions weather we will succeed. That was like when you learned how to walk for the first time. Did you give up?