At times, I feel very hyped up and greatly positive and optimistic as it was guaranteed 100% that the law of attraction is a law of nature and that it is as reliable as any other law in nature such as law of gravity. Apple always falls towards the centre of the earth regardless of the kind of apple, or the location where it falls. And thus, I just need to have a blind faith towards this law of attraction.
As promising and convenient it may sound, still, I had some 'faith' breakdowns or what most of us would call doubts on the legitimacy of this 'secret'.
is it only a mere wishful thinking which the idea was made believe to people who is hunger for a quick fix?
One of the 'breakdown' happened to me two days ago. As I checked my bank account and realized that I have spent way too much money this last month. Instead of a million dollar, I saw a decreasing amount of money in my account. I was down, and I was in pain. In the midst of my disappointment, my mom rang me and noticed that I was a little bit under the weather. Out of a sudden that very ordinary conversation turned out to be a teary conversation and so on. Sigh.
As she was concern about me and that she told me I should not be too overwhelmed with this whole one million dollar thing.
However, after the conversation was hung, and I was all alone again then I realize how badly I want this ONE million dollar. How serious I want to be a millionaire. O my universe, have I not wanted it badly? or is it not bad enough?
anyway this thing had really kept me sad, and I kept praying in my heart and try to surrender to the All giver to please give me a way to lead me to this one million dollar.
Thus, all day was spent on painting to sort of build my mood, and this is what I have:
