@library I havent slept since yesterday!

Why do we worries?

I worry. Have you ever worried? Surely, you have! how do you feel when you worry? Not at ease? for sure.

Worrying is definitely not helping. Nevertheless, we can't avoid or stop ourselves from being worried. Well, most of the time. Now, where does this feeling of uneasiness come from? From the way we see or perceive problems? From the way we define our issues? Or is it simply something that we can't explain? Something that just pops out like our mood? Or perhaps it is some sort of moods? I have no ideas myself.

I worry at times. I worry about things about things that may not at all be as bad as it, to me, may seem.

I have heard of this thing called "inner voice" or "internal guiding system" or "gut feelings". Question: Does it have anything to do with worries? Simply put, does it mean that whenever I worry that I gotta change the direction that I have been taking? Does it mean that I am going to the wrong path? Hmm not sure also. Fact is when I drink alcohol the worry seems to vanish. Does it mean that this is not a good parameter as to be classified as "an internal guiding system"? I wonder.

What do you do when you worry? Sometimes I sleep. "Things will get better when you wake up." That is a classic one. Or at other times, I try to find the root that may have caused my being worried. Face the problem! Go against the stream of your coward. Well, I just invented a new term "stream of coward" it is the stream that tend to go down the stream away from the problem, away from the raging wave, towards the warm nice shore. Avoiding.

Why do you worried? Hmm many reasons. Many answers. It varies. But I believe we worried, most of the time, due to the fact that we aren't certain. Uncertainty. We are not certain about what this or that may hold in our future. We are not certain if this or that is in the picture, as we wish it would be. We are not certain if this person is right for us. We worried. We worried. We worried. Does it help? Does it give us solution? I don't know. Where does solution come from? What is solution anyway?

Solution is probably the intersection between reality and expectation. Not quite! Hmm, well when we found the common denominator of the reality and our expectation, we feel happy. Don't we? Our uncertainty is answered. Then, if they don't intersect will we still be worried. Hmm then the worrying turn to become disappointment. We no longer worry yet we get disappointed.

First conclusion is worrying is a state of mind/feeling/mood that will manifest into fulfillment/joy/happiness, that is when our expectation and the reality intersects, or disappointment, that is when our expectation does not intersect with the reality.

Second conclusion/suggestion: Do not worry! Live in a day let go off what the future may hold, have faith and just live your life to the fullest at this moment, right now.

Manifestation Day 1

Recently I came across a very interesting book "Cosmic Ordering-The Next Adventure" by Barbel Mohr. The concept is nothing new. It revolves around the ideas that somewhat similar to that of law of attraction. However interestingly the book depicts the universe as a huge gigantic catalogue on which you need to have a faith that anything I mean ANYTHING that you request will be delivered. Free of charge! The condition is: You got to have a childlike faith!

By childlike faith it means have no doubts whatsoever! For example, I have sent out my request to the universe to send me 10,000 SGD and that I shall faithfully wait for it to be delivered to me, from the universe. For me it is an incredible IDEA. Also, very soothing!