I have no more excitement. For sure much less from that I used to have say five years ago or so. Instead of one or two or a handful of a few things on which I should be investing more time and effort such that to develop new talents or new knowledge, I seem to scatter around and to be caught between many and different interests.
Lately I have been asking my self a very vague yet profound question provoking a whole week of self reflection or self thought process. It is the very basis and one of the strongest and most sensitive attribute to a human being living in most part of the world. Religion.
First and foremost I am not going to ask the existence of God. Not because I am 100% sure for the existence nor due to the fact that I have solid fact stating otherwise. It is because of the fact that I am unable to provide certainty supporting neither side of the argument.
Although the terror of childhood story of hell and the torment mankind may receive due to the wrong doing which mainly mean the wrong doers are those who do not execute what the Creator wants them to execute. Not to mention the detail specific kind of action the mankind expected to execute such as a certain way of dressing, going to a particular place on a certain day/days, abstain from eating certain type of meat or from eating at all in a particular month, and so on. These rituals that are seem to be so important even more than the more sensible ones such as loving each other, help the poor, live your dreams and so on but instead these minute details that determine the kind of accommodation one will receive in the after life. I must admit at times these haunt me. Thus, I do those that I am expected to execute.
Would not you think that it is superficial? That we do all these things not out of freewill but instead of out of fear. Who created this fear?
Such superficiality that was accentuated by Kathy Griffin in her Emmy acceptance speech. Where she said:
Now, a lot of people come up here and thank Jesus for this award. I want you to know that no one had less to do with this award than Jesus. He didn't help me a bit. If it was up to him, Cesar Millan would be up here with that damn dog. So all I can say is suck it, Jesus, this award is my god now!
This remark apparently made a headline and brought such controversial publicity to Miss Griffin back in 2007. Although she was trying to convey the message that the superficial shallow people who tought themselves as the centre of the universe such that God partakes and participate in helping this people getting an award or making some billion dollars from a movie premiere. As if God had nothing else or more important stuffs to deal with.
Another thing that I dealt in again was this comedy and political documentary by the director Larry Charies en titled "Religioulous" which the word is derived from the word "Religion" and "Ridiculous". The documentary features interview with people from organized religious group or believe system by Bill Mahem who also gives remark and narration in the video. It was funny but smart. Provocative but probable.
I must admit my attitude towards religion or having one religion has developed to another level these past few years. It is the experience of meeting different type of people with different cultural approach to this topic and different attitude regarding religion. I am not sure and do not care if it is a better attitude or worse to the topic. Although from personal experience and personal observation my conclusion is religion may hinder someone from reaching its true potential or lead someone to self hate or self repression due to some fact that is not approved in the religious rules and law which can not be changed. Example: Being a homosexual.
