Saving?

Born into a post-hardship about forty years after Indonesia proclaimed its independence, I have never been taught values and importance of having things excessively. I would not say either it is bad rather I would like to flash back in to the day when sufficient lifestyle was the way that many kids were taught. I never once had wished I had one particular thing and had my parents bought them for me the next day. Perhaps the situation is just a fact with the economic of the household that was barely sufficient. As a kid growing up in a small town when at that time television channels only show evening news and some imported kids program on Sundays, I was not introduced to the lifestyle that many kids embrace nowadays: Consumerism.

In spite of that I vividly remember my first naive prayer to the God was richness. All I wanted is to be rich. Now that I think about it I found it funny and at the same time soul-tickling that I had had aspired such a thing. I wanted to be rich. The richest person in the small town was the governor. Every person in the village would be wow-ed and mesmerized by the new cars that were parked in the governor's house. Second to the governors would be doctors and dentists. Whilst my parents ranked almost near the bottom of the hierarchy as they were lecturers in the local university.

We did not have annual holiday instead almost every weekend (if my parents were not so tired and it was not a scorcher (extremely hot day)) we would make picnic in the nearby beach I think it was called tumbelaka or something like that. Well, it was not my favorite beach. It has rocky ground and there was no white sand. My favorite was Tanjung Karang. A very beautiful coastal beach (I am not sure but it looks like it) with long strand of white sand. Well, when my Mom had to visit my uncle in Jakarta for his marriage, that was the first time I see the big city. Big skycrappers, long and jammed streets with four lanes, gigantic bridges, and people say "Gw" instead of "Saya".

"Mom, I wanted to live in this city."
"You needed to have a lot of money to live here."
"Mom, I wanted to have a lot of money."
"You needed to save money from now."

But the wisdom never really implemented till now.

I want to be rich and have lots of money living a life that I would fall in love with. I want to live in New York, having influencial organization fighting poverty in some parts of Asia and Africa, and having people pay me respect because of what I have accomplished and by accomplished I mean with the monetary compensation.

Right now, I am already a millionaire - in my mind. I really hold on tightly to this vision that I have lots of money. I am not a capitalist neither am I against it. There are a lot worse things in the world thatn being a capitalist: CORRUPTION. This evil thing that had caused poverty due to unequal distribution of wealth.

If you have read the secret then you know what law of attraction is all about. This has been more than six months since I religiously focus my thoughts to richness. I want to be rich and have money coming in to me without having to go through the pain of saving.